2010 Los Angeles Twi-Tour

I could tell you how much fun I had at the latest Twilight Convention... but how about some pictures instead? ;)

~ Dette and the guys - Chaske Spencer, Alex Meraz and Kiowa Gordon ~

~ Dette and Chaske Spencer ~

~ Dette and Alex Meraz ~

~ Dette and Charlie Bewley ~

~ Dette and Tinsel Korey ~

~ Dette and Kiowa Gordon ~

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Not Your Average Vampire Fan

He thinks I'm off my rocker.

Hell - maybe I am. Doesn't get my thing with "Twilight," never mind that I've always been into vampires and werewolves, even before the world was introduced to Edward Cullen.  What about Lestat de Lioncourt and Louis de Pointe du Lac... remember "Interview with the Vampire?" Or more recently, Lucian and Sonya in "UnderWorld: Rise of the Lycans."

Bill Nighy delivers an incredible performance as both Viktor in "Underworld" and Davy Jones in Pirates of the Caribbean.  Loved POTC, and the Harry Potter series as well! Hubz skips out on those movies, or takes a $10 nap in the theatre. *scoffs*

He can't understand how I can be so enthralled with something, anything, that's "not real."  He just doesn't get it. This is a constant debate in our house.

But... a few nights ago, I tweeted that I'd be introducing him to Sookie and Bill in the "True Blood" series... Rented the first two episodes from Blockbuster, put the monsters to bed and pressed play.

*holds breath*

~ Image courtesy of True Blood Wiki ~

Normally, he falls asleep in the recliner once he's settled.  But not this time. *grins* I ended up getting the next DVD, and then the next one...

The last one was epi's 5-7, but my tired ass fell asleep. So guess who watched all 3 episodes by himself? In one sitting?

*bwahahaha!!*

Thank you, TrueBloodHBO, for helping bring Hubz into the light! Or should I say... into the darkness?? ;)

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Cougar Town Meets Farm Show

How'd you like to find this parked in front of your house?

 

  

  

 

They only make 28 of these every ten years.  The stereo is loud enough for everyone in the next neighborhood to hear. And those wheels are nicer than any I'll ever own. *lol* I wish you guys could see this ridiculous boat - we're going to have a pizza party "Bobby" style later tonight with the boys. ;)

So if you have an extra $120K just laying around somewhere, maybe you can come by and pick this up from our neighbors. *grins*

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Seasons Greetings!

Ever wonder what it's like with three rambunctious boys running around all the time?  On a good day - this says it all (*chuckles*):

~ Einstein (15), Numbnuts (8) and Little Shit (4) ~

It's New Year's Eve and our Christmas lights are still up.  With all the work Hubz and Einstein put into it, I'd be surprised if they took it down before the first of the year.  But it's worth it, though - the kids and the neighbors and even their visitors always stop out front to enjoy the view:

All things bright and beautiful

All creatures great and small

All things wise and wonderful

The Lord God made them all.

~Cecil Alexander

Wishing all of you a blessed holiday season

and a joyous and prosperous New Year!!

*** Psst!! To help celebrate the New Year, stay tuned for a special giveaway. More details to follow! ***

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New Sheriff in Town

Let me set it straight from the get-go:  It was Skinny Ass' idea to get a new kitty for the kids for Christmas.

In fact, both Hubz and Numbnuts had been canvassing the local SPCA for the last week.  The very same day we got back from San Francisco, he piled up the whole family into the car - again - to hit up the extension at the mall.

Turns out the SPCA also has animals available for adoption at PetSmart.

Where we spent no less than two hours meeting all the cats, seeing how well they play with each other (or not), seeing how they react to a dog.  Observing how they behave with the kids, and if they still enjoy socializing with all five of us packed in that little room.

If it were up to me, we might've brought home THREE cats that night.  But seeing as Hubz always knows how to put his foot down (*wink*), we only brought home two. *giggles*

Say hello to family pet members #4 and #5 - the new rugrats:

~ Nico (AKA Houdini), 7 months old ~

~ Zoe, 7 months old ~

Of course, I'm the biatch that won't let 'em up in the kitchen. So when I start hollering at them to get off my counters or the house plants, guess who comes over to back me up?

~ Samson at 42, recently promoted to Sheriff ~

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Naughty Secrets

Makes a mother wonder...

"Hmnnn... what could she be whispering into his ear? And WHERE is that hand going?"

But most importantly... "Which one of the ruddy monsters posed 'em like this?!"

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Interview with The Hillywood Show

Watching these ladies at the Twi-Tours... doing their thing... I am just in awe of how talented these two sisters are, and of their genuine and humble personalities. After the San Francisco Twi-Tour, we hooked up on Facebook, where they cheerily agreed to an interview. Can you imagine how stoked I was?!

It was a treat to learn more about the Hindi sisters - Hilly and Hannah. Don't forget to follow them on twitter at (see links below) - and stop and say hello when you see them at one of the upcoming Official Twilight Conventions!!

Psst! After the interview, why not take another peek at the parody - and one of my favorites... A Look Behind the Scenes of the Twilight Parody!!


Q. I’ve heard that you’ve both been dancing for several years now, and have even received honors from the Royal Academy of Dance as well as the Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing in London , England .

What inspired each of you to start dancing?

A. We started when we were very young (around age 5). Our parents enrolled us in dance and it just sort of stuck as a great hobby!


Q. With your successes in The Hillywood Show, does that leave much room for any more dancing? Will we have an opportunity to see either of you perform at any upcoming concerts or competitions?

A. Well, we dance as often as possible but touring has kept us very busy! We have performed in concerts and competitions before, but as for now, we are focusing just on "The Hillywood Show."


Q. Hannah – in 2006, you entered the “Miss Nevada ” contest and placed as one of the Top 10 finalists. What was that experience like? Tell us about your favorite part of the competition, as well as what you disliked the most.

A. It was definitely something I enjoyed experiencing! It was a lot of work though...especially the fitness part! The best part was knowing that I was competing for an honorable position and the worst part was getting in shape!


Q. Sometimes, something happens in life that stirs up different emotions for us. A song on the radio can take us back 10 years or a certain scent or smell will make us think of home, or a particular event.

At your site, I noticed that Hilly, your greatest fear is clowns. And Hannah, yours is sharks. I can relate to those both! Would you be able to share with us how those fears came about?

A. HILLY: I've just a lways had this fear of clowns. They seem to happy and it creeps me out! It could possibly have sparked something when I was little and watching "The Little Toaster" and they had a scary clown in it.

HANNAH: I have no idea! Sharks and the ocean have always just scared me. It's like a completely different world down there!

I believe the Twilight Parody took about 2 months to film, and 2 weeks to edit.


Q. When you’re not filming, editing, brainstorming, dancing, or booking your next event – what do you like to do for fun? And to unwind?

A. We love hanging out with our boyfriends, family, dancing, and going on vacation!


Q. When was the last time you took a vacation and what did you do?

A. We went to Disneyland and simply enjoyed ourselves!


Q. Any plans for your next vacation?

A. Hmmm...we would like to go to the UK! That would be amazing!


Q. You’ve filmed several different episodes, from Pirates of the Caribbean, Star Trek, Back to the Future and Twilight, and most recently, The Dark Knight – just to name a few.

Out of all the parodies you’ve filmed, which one was your favorite and why? Any particular scenes?

A. "Twilight Parody" was definitely our favorite! It was just so much fun and easy goin g!

A particular scene that was really fun to shoot in "Twilight Parody" was the scene between Edward and Bella with the red velvet where he bites her. It was so much fun to direct and shoot!


Q. When filming “The Dark Knight” – which was absolutely wicked!! – how did you prep yourselves to get into character?

Where did those amazing costumes come from, and where was the parody filmed at?

A. The Joker costume was purchased from a company in Japan and Harley Quinn was from a company in Canada. Everything was shot in Las Vegas, NV.


Q. What part of The Dark Knight parody was your favorite and why?

A. There are far too many to choose from! One of our favorites is the rain scene with the Joker and the mask in hand.


Q. How do you choose what you’ll be filming next? Do you have a list of projects you’d like to work on or do you prefer to make your choices along the way?

A. We make our choices along the way. Honestly, whatever sparks our interest!


Q. In the Twilight Parody, you have Jacob Jost starring as Edward Cullen, Drew Lorentz as Jasper Hale and Joseph Lewellyn as Jacob Black. ALL incredible, by the way!

Did you already have all of them in mind when you first started working on the Twilight Parody, or was there more to the casting?

A. We already personally knew all the Cullens. However, the Jacob Black was found through a model agency.


Q. LOVED Joseph as Jacob – but noticed a change for New Moon. What’s the story behind that?

A. The new Jacob Black is Kyle Dayton and we decided to recast because he already had the cropped black hair and was much more muscular for the role.


Q. I read somewhere that Jacob and Drew are your real-life boyfriends – is this just a rumor or is it actually true? True or not – tell us how you guys all met.

A. It's true! We actually all met before we shot for "Twilight Parody!"


Q. And what’s it like working together? Any idiosyncrasies or pet peeves? Or especially… any funny stories you can share with us?

A. It's so much fun working together as sisters. We finish eachother sentences and practically read eachothers minds. We really get along quite well! However, Hilly sometimes will change an idea at the last minute and it can stress Hannah out, but in the end it always works out!


Q. Most of us Twilighters have our favorite parts in the movie… the baseball scene, the fight in the ballet studio, the kiss…

What part of the movie was your favorite and why? How about the Twilight parody?

A. We really enjoy the baseball scene in "Twilight" and we also enjoy the baseball scene in our parody!


Q. To sneak a peek into what inspires or entertains you, please share with us:

What movies have you seen recently that you might call a new favorite? And what was it about the movie that struck you?

A. "Transformers 2" was pretty awesome! Shia is what made the entire film what it was. He's such an inspiring actor!


Q. Tell us about your classic, all-time favorites?

A. "Edward Scissorhands", "Lord of the Rings Saga", "Sweeney Todd"...we have far too many!


Q. Any new favorite books? Or classic, all-time favorite books?

A. "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King", "Twilight", and "Breaking Dawn"


Q. Having had the opportunity to see you guys in action, I think you guys do a superb job of hosting the “Twi-Tour” Conventions put on by Creation Entertainment.

Will you be appearing as hosts at all the upcoming Twi-Tours currently on schedule?

A. Yes, we are touring for the rest of 2009 and 2010!


Q. To give the fans a chance to meet the famous duo, could you let us know of any upcoming events you have booked and where to go for more information?

A. For more information on all our tours, visit our web site (www.TheHillywoodShow.com) and check out all the cities we will be visiting!


Q. And lastly, we’ve seen the sneak preview to your “New Moon” – can’t wait! Any other ideas on the table of what fans might see next from The Hillywood Show?

A. Well, "The Hillywood Show" has its secrets! You never know what the show will bring you next!


The Twilight Parody:



The Twilight Parody - A Look Behind the Scenes:

For more info on The Hillywood Show, check them out at:

WEBSITE: http://www.thehillywoodshow.com
YOUTUBE: http://www.youtube.com/JckSparrow
VIMEO: http://www.vimeo.com/thehillywoodshow
MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/TheHillywoodShow
FACEBOOK: http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Hillywood-Show/47392274582

TWITTER ACCOUNTS:
The Hillywood Show: http://twitter.com/HillywoodShow
Hilly Hindi: http://twitter.com/HillyHindi
Hannah Hindi: http://twitter.com/HannahHindi
Drew Lorentz: http://twitter.com/DrewLorentz
Jacob Jost: http://twitter.com/TheJacobJost

HILLYFANS WEBSITE: http://hillyfans.com/
HILLYFANS TWITTER: http://twitter.com/hillyfans

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The Impromptu Applause

He was running late again, but I assured Mrs. B that he was right behind me. Knowing we wouldn't need the full half hour, and since we were her last parent/teacher conference for the day, it gave us some time for chit-chat.

Including how Numbnuts is so in awe of Einstein, how he talks about him constantly, or how he already knows how to do something because "he learned it from his brother."

Skinny Ass finally arrived 10 minutes later, just as we were about to get started. I'm really glad he was able to make it... it was wonderful to hear Mrs. B go on about Jacob (AKA Numbnuts).

How competitive he is - with himself - and wanting to be at the top of the class. How he never boasts or brags or tries to make anyone feel bad when he scores better than them.

How disappointed he is if he doesn't score 100% on his math tests, and how quickly he turns the pages to the weekly bulletin to see where everyone stands.

How it kills him that there's exactly one other student in the class, a good friend of his, that has got his AR score beat.

***

After reviewing his grades and all his school work, she asks if we have any questions. "I don't think so," I smile at her. "That was actually very thorough, thank you."

After a pause, I remember the Timeline Project he just brought back home. A project that required 10 events in his lifetime, events that we detailed with pictures and notes on a poster board. Where we practiced his oral presentation skills and did role play before he took it to school to submit.

"I can't tell you how excited Jacob was, though, when he brought home the grades he received for his Timeline Project," I said.

Of course, Skinny Ass has to mention the bit of drama we had about it. Since Jacob had lost the instructions, and didn't TELL us he had to have a minimum of 10 events until the morning of. And here we are, scrambling to fit everything in during the morning rush.

But all of this just sends Mrs. B into a dreamlike frenzy. It's as if she's stepped back a few weeks, remembering the day the presentations were given in class...

"Jacob, as always, wants to go first. He had his hand up when I asked for volunteers, but there were a couple of people that got to go ahead of him. Most of them were pretty nervous... reading straight from their notes on the timeline, looking up into the audience only because they suddenly remembered that they're supposed to make eye contact. But Jacob...?"

She throws me a knowing look that makes me chuckle before she continues on. "He was so comfortable up there. He followed the timeline, but totally ad-libbed it. He didn't just read from his notes - he told little anecdotes here and there, including stories about his brothers or his life at home. His eye contact and voice projection was great - he had his audience fully engaged."

Then she pauses to tell us that she specifically did not guide the students to clap their hands for each one's presentation, that they'd simply move on to the next one. Except when Jacob finished up and headed for his seat, you heard the sound of someone, a couple of them, slowly clapping their hands together.

"Soon enough, the ENTIRE class was clapping for him," she revelled. "Because even though they're third graders, even they know the difference between a standard presentation... and a Jacob Presentation."

***

My dumbass felt the sting of tears that threatened my eyes, at the simple joy and pride of this impromptu applause given to my 8 year old son.

This is my Jacob. The same Jacob that sends me love letters when he's happy, and posts hate notes on his door when he wants to be left alone. The same Jacob that surprises me with home made gifts on my desk, wrapped in white copy paper and bundled with scotch tape.

The same Jacob that pulls out the puppet theatre, lays out "programs" on my seat with snacks and beverages while he and The Little Shit put on 7 acts in the living room.

Yes... this is my Jacob. And no, I ain't talking about no werewolf, either ;)

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Vampire Geisha and the Dead Doorman

Totally guilty of rockin' the vamp geisha outfit from earlier this year at the San Francisco Twi-Tour's Vampire Ball. When I met Kellan Lutz. *catches breath*

But HALE. I didn't wear it for (in singsong) Halloween...!

*grins*

Last year, I was the Mad Hatter Hostess and Hubz sported a top hat with white rabbit ears. Cute, right?

So this year, I figured - what the hell - I'mma bust it out for the party. Here's the pic I tweeted that night, but you can't see my fangs. :(

Actually, they're these custom-fit "Love Bites" fangs, and are really subtle. Take a looksie:

Did you see Hubz's picture? Every year, that fucker bitches at me about what costume he's gotta wear that Hallow's Eve. He moans and groans, complains when I apply his make-up... he is just ALL OUT grumpy.

But I think it's all a facade. Coz you should see the way he works his costume. *shakes head* He runs the local full-service hotel, so this costume actually fit him perfectly. And did you see them monster boots?!

Skinny Ass is already tall at 6'5" - guess he just wanted to make sure you wouldn't miss him. ;)

And you know I had to throw one in there of those nefarious monsters of mine ;)

Hope you all had a wicked Halloween!!

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Help us Welcome Gil at England's "New Moon Rising"

Calling all Twilight fans attending the "New Moon Rising" Twilight Convention in England... are you down to have some fun with us???

If you will be attending this event come October 16th - 18th, and you're up for some mischief to be had with the one and only, Gil Birmingham... holla!

The official "Gilstigator" - @lovegardenia - is looking to make sure Gil gets a warm welcome at New Moon Rising, and has cooked up a bit of mischief. But we need YOUR help.

Send me an email at mammadawg [dot] gmail [dot] com for more info. And just for fun, check out the video below for Gil's very first acting gig - courtesy of the Gilstigator:




Don't forget to follow Gil on Twitter - he is uber cool about tweeting with his fans! More contact info below:


GIL BIRMINGHAM'S CONTACT INFO
Official Website
MySpace
Facebook
Twitter

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The Wolf Pack, Saving Some Sexy for Me

We kicked off Day 3 (Sunday) with the Charity Breakfast. Christian Cerratos, Justin Chon, Chaske Spencer and Alex Meraz spent time chatting with everyone at each of the tables. We had plenty of people covering it, so I cruised back to my post backstage.

The hotel staff was incredible - and even helped me bring some breakfast back for both me and Chantelle, the other volunteer backstage. (She handled the technical aspect with the banner signage, and I handled the Meet & Greet's with the VIPs and the actors.) Chantelle was delighted, "You even brought orange juice?!" I love that girl - we're like 2 peas in a pod. :)

Hannah and Hilly Hindi were actually heading onstage, but I caught a look of longing on their faces and offered some breakfast to them, too. "Just some fruit would be wonderful...," Hannah exclaimed.

I wish I'd known that when I was still at the Charity Breakfast - I would've brought back a whole plate for them. It's the least I could do - they are so sweet and professional, and handled the Q&A expertly.

This day was starting out soooo much better than yesterday or the day before. I was actually eating!! And you know what else?

I missed out on photo ops on both Friday AND Saturday coz it was so damn crazy. I was NOT going to make the same mistake on this last day. Went and bought tix for both the wolf pack and the "humans" - whaddaya think?


Me and the Wolf Pack: Alex Meraz (AKA Paul)and Chaske Spencer (AKA Sam)


ALL the photos they were taking looked HAWT - so when I got up there, I just asked 'em to "save some 'sexy' for me." *rawr* Mission accomplished.

Check out these pics that Chauntelle got of them during their Q&A - I absolutely love 'em. They totally capture the essence of each of their personalities:



Next up was Christian and Justin. I still remember introducing Christian to the VIPs backstage - I was giving her a quick rundown and letting her know that as soon as the VIP Meet & Greet was over, she'd be heading onstage for the Q&A.

"Wait, wait. I'm not going by myself am I?"

It was so cute. I assured her Justin would be arrive by then and she literally sighed with relief.

"I'd just be so much more comfortable with Justin up there with me - or... or Edi." She laughed and continued, "I know it doesn't make much sense, but... still."

If you follow both Christian and Edi on Twitter, then you can totally see how comfy they are with each other. :)




Their Q&A session was one of the most energetic and interactive ones I've seen yet - totally rocked the house! Photo ops followed, and after hollering "Last Call!" to everyone, I was able to get mine:

Me and the Humans: Justin Chon (AKA Eric) and Christian Cerratos (AKA Angela)


The con was about over and I was abso-freakin-ly exhausted. The girls found me before leaving for McDonald's - they are SO sweet! Karen hooked me up with dinner, which I devoured poolside with them after everything was over. It was so nice to just relax and chit-chat after such a crazy weekend. We'd been tweeting about this con forever, so it felt like we all knew each other forever already.

Now tell me - why the hell didn't we all take a picture together at the pool?!?!

I *heart* you guys. And this... wraps up the 2009 Phoenix Twi-Tour. Coming up soon? A special interview with the sisters behind "The Hillywood Show" - Hilly and Hannah Hindi.

*** Photo Credits: Special thanks to Chauntelle Chandler and Twi-tterpatted for sharing pics!! ***

PHOENIX TWI-TOUR
Part 1: From Green Room to Backstage
Part 2: Flirting and Feeding
Part 3: A Waltz with Gil at the Vampire Ball
Part 4: The Wolf Pack, Saving Some Sexy for Me

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Broken Toe and a Blow Job

Did you hear about the speakerphone incident? The one that ended with a mischievous 8 year-old, trying to play Mr. Innocent as he grins and asks me, "Mom? What's a penis?"

Bet you're glad you're not me today, huh? *raises eyebrows*

I sent Skinny Ass to the doc coz his left leg had been acting up. Plus, the dumbass stubbed his toe over the weekend and it took on the color of my hair from back in the day - all black and blue.

He calls me on the cell phone to give me the scoop as he's leaving the clinic. I'm in the car, which automatically puts all my calls on speakerphone (via uConnect), and I've just picked up the last of the 3 monsters.

Just so you have a clear picture of what's going on here... phone calls override the audio in the car, so we have a carload of eavesdroppers with nothing else going on to distract them.

Hubz and I fuck around on the phone a lot, he likes to answer his phone with, "De Ja Vu" and I'll answer mine with, "Hooters."

Except there was none of that this time, he was kind of holding his breath - and after a couple seconds of dead air, he let loose.

"Yep. Doctor says the fucking toe is broken. And he also said that I need to keep it bandaged up for the next 6 weeks, and that you need to put my penis in your mouth so that...,"

O_o

I didn't hear the rest of his rant. I was hollering, "Hey! HEY! We're in the car!" and my 15 y/o was trying to cut him off.

"Dad. Dad! DAD! YOU'RE ON SPEAKERPHONE!!"

He finally shut up long enough to hear me tell him, "Numbnuts wants to know what a penis is."

Yeah, muthafucka. YOU handle that one.

We all agreed that Einstein would answer the phone if ever Dad calls again while we're in the car, just so he'd know upfront he had an audience. I seriously think Einstein got the worst of it, though... What teenager wants to listen to his parents talking about sex?

I'm just glad I didn't hear, "Why did the doctor say that Dad needs to put his penis in your mouth?"

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A Waltz with Gil at the Vampire Ball

Game plan for the ball changed a bit, compared to the Twilight After-Party in Los Angeles, and the 1st Vampire Ball in San Francisco...

All the attendees got hugs in SF. In LA, the celebrities made rounds to all the tables for some chit-chat with the attendees.

And in Phoenix?

How about an encore from Mike Welch to open up the evening? And a special performance from Alex Meraz and his Capoeira Dance Troup?







This was absolutely... stunning. And I'm not talking just about the eye-candy. The talent, the strength, the TRUST... I've been scouring the net looking for a video, but who knew we were in for such a special treat?

Speaking of... we got a nice surprise when Kiowa Gordon dropped by the party unexpectedly. VERY cool.

Hmnnn... can you imagine dancing side by side with one of the Twilight celebrities? How about Chaske Spencer, Christian Cerratos and Kiowa Gordon?

Check out this vid from New Moon Movie:




And where was I while this vid was taking place?

Right outside, with the rest of the gang - waiting for their cue to join in. I can't remember who went first - Mike? Then Justin?

But I do remember Gil Birmingham being last. He was flirting with me again, which made me laugh - and I poked him in the chest and said, "You need to quit. For reals."

Except Val pulled me aside, without one word, one look.

Aw shit.

You know I had to dig at Gil, "You're not allowed to talk to me anymore. You're getting me in trouble."

Which, of course, led into an impromptu dance in the hallway.

He'd follow me to ask what happened, and I'd sidestep him. And we'd do it all over again - I think we busted the most awkward Waltz ever like that - lol. But this ain't much compared to the exchange Gil had with Curves in the Road...

Maybe you'll be wearing some polka dots for Gil when you see him. *wink*

Afterwards, I never got a chance to change outta work clothes - but I partied with the girls anyway. Why the hell didn't I bring my camera down?? I took so many pics with other people, but didn't have one for my own.

But I scored a copy of this one from @stephaniequin:

Amanda, Odette and Stephanie

And my tweeples... The Phoenix Twi-Tour Twitter Coven:

Chauntelle, Michael, Odette and Karen


UP NEXT: Sunday, the last day of the con.

*** Photo Credits: Special thanks to Chauntelle Chandler and Twi-tterpatted for sharing pics!! ***

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Just Say No to MaryJane

Damn... Did I really write all that?

I mean, I know I wrote it... just trippin' that I actually posted it. My head was in a whole different place then... [Pause] And you didn't give up on me, did you? You're still here... even after all my drama.

I freakin' LOVE you guys.

Did I tell you, that when I was in Phoenix, I was talking to some ladies behind me at Starbucks, when one of 'em busted, "I google stalk you, you know..."

Whoa. O_o Wha-?

Turns out she googled something about the convention, and my blog was the first link to pop up. Tripped me out. It was kinda neat - and maybe a little nervewracking - to meet someone who recognized me as "MammaDawg."

lol - I had a great time chatting with them - gawd help me - I can't remember their names, though, damnit. I met soooo many people at the convention - we were gonna hook up on Twitter or TwiFans or TwilightMOMS afterwards, you know? Except...

Yeah - it's all that damn weed I used to smoke.

*snort* And you think I'm kidding, don'tcha? ;)

Anyhoo - I'm back. I think I just needed a break... There's still a few things I need to figure out, but fuck it. I'm not gonna let it keep me from doing what I wanna do. God love all my tweeples for help keeping me sane - you know who you are. *mwah!*

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Shattered Walls

e done did it to me again.

It doesn't matter how high my guard is up. Or how thick the walls are. That big ass tat on my back? There's a reason why I have the ghetto version of "smile now, cry later" inked forever onto my skin.

And too many of them to list as to why I don't cry very easy. Especially not in public. But for some reason... whenever I enter this house...

Not immediately, but gradually... a gentle, subtle warmth starts to wrap around me after I've settled in. Like a "welcome home" greeting - regardless if I had just visited last week or last month. There's never a guilt-trip, never "Why haven't you come to see me?" or "I wish you'd come around more often."

The river doesn't flow during every visit... but today...? Today he heard me. Saw me. Understood me.

Took me right back to that first night in Phoenix, when I asked myself, "What the FUCK am I doing here? Away from my family? I don't need this shit."

He put his hand on my shoulder, empathized with me about the stupid riff I had going on with Hubz that morning. Hugged me in comfort as I thought about the last three days...

Finding out my great-aunt had had a massive stroke, and was fighting to stay with us every minute in the ICU.

Funny. I don't call her my great-aunt. I call her "Grandma." It's the Filipino way. Never mind that I only met my mother's mother once - when I was still in grade school. Her and my Grandpa were visiting from the Philippines.. and ovarian cancer claimed her before I got a chance to see her again.

I met my father's mother twice before she passed on. Last time was when I was in 6th grade. So... come to think of it, she may not technically be my "Grandma," but my great-aunt is the closest thing I've got to one.

And now she's officially half brain-dead. Had a successful surgery to release some of the swelling in her brain, but hasn't opened her eyes since last Thursday. But she's still fighting...

And He knows all this. He knows what's in my heart, probably even better than I do. And knowing that He's there, knowing that someone truly GETS what's going on with me...

Sometimes it's just the lightest touch, the offer of comfort and love - and that's it. The dam's broke, leaving me shuddering silently and shaking with sobs. No one may have seen his hand reach out to me... but that doesn't mean I didn't feel it.

It doesn't matter that there are people all around me. Sitting in front of or behind me... nobody takes leave because they're doing the same thing:

Praying for love, patience, guidance, strength.



I've been a bit MIA... trying to get my shit together. Effectively not talking to Hubz, who doesn't seem to want to discuss the stupid shit that we seem to do, that drives the other crazy. Spending time with my mom, who's here visiting on account of Grandma.

I'll be back... hope to see you on the other side of this shiznit.

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Flirting and Feeding

(Continued from "From Green Room to Backstage")


First up onstage was the hilarious, Edi Gathegi. Who admitted to just watching New Moon in a private theatre with Stephanie Meyer - which he actually tweeted so make sure you're following him on Twitter! After his Q&A, we called up his VIPs to do their "Meet & Greet" backstage again, but Edi's lunch had actually arrived.

I asked him if he wanted to eat before or after, reminding him he had to run out to photo ops right afterwards... and he proceeded to wolf down his sandwich. The VIPs were kind enough to let Edi have a moment to himself...

Which he ended up being all kinds of naughty with me. 0_o

OMG that boy is a flirt! But he is SO easy to talk to. Funny and down to earth - and BUILT. He gave me a super tight hug (Kellan - watch out - Edi's hugs might be tighter than yours!)

Anyhoo, I dished it back to him and he threatened to "tell him."

"Tell who?" I asked. Edi grabbed my left hand and said, "Him."

I laughed and with a wicked grin, I told him, "Oh hell - what are YOU talking about. I'mma call him tonight and tell him myself."

I wish you could've seen the way his eyes bugged out. I was LMFAO.

Apparently, Gil Birmingham pulled the same stunt with me when he got backstage. I narrowed my eyes at him and gave him shit. "What the hell. Have you been talking to Edi??"

Apparently, not - lol.... but if we thought Edi was a flirt... Gil kicks his ass, hands down. Did you know, Friday night, after the concert, Gil kicked it poolside by the firepit with over a dozen lovely fans? Guitar and all - and hit on the beautiful @curvyamazon and @vixen_vamp.

I bet some of you are wishing you went to Phoenix now. ;)

After the jump? Click "continue" for more on The Wolf Pack - Alex Meraz, Gil Birmingham and Chaske Spencer

Gil joined Chaske and Alex onstage for the Q&A - and afterwards, Alex gave us a preview of what to expect from his dance troupe later that night at the ball.

Impressive. Sexy. Beautiful. Inspirational.

My favorite part? After they were all done onstage, Alex picked up trash from the stage and helped put the chairs back. It made me think of his lovely wife, Kim, who I got to meet earlier in the Green Room (really sweet and pretty!), and what a beautiful couple they make together.

When the three of them returned backstage, I had all of them (Gil, Chaske & Alex) standing around a 10' round table, banners ready for signature. Instructing each of them where to sign, I realized to myself, "OMG. I'm standing inches away from these incredibly sexy actors, and they're eyes are all on... me."

It took me two milliseconds to reign it in and push that thought out - the last thing I needed was to turn into fangirl right there and then. Can I just tell you? How these pics don't do them ANY justice?!? Gawd... I've no idea if it registered with them, but... whew! Can I get a drink in here, please? ;)


Mike Welch came back to do his Meet & Greet with the VIPs, and when it was over, I told him security would escort him back to the Green Room. Except... he kinda dawdled a little bit, until he asked - ever so shyly - if it'd be alright if he just chilled backstage with us until photo ops started in 15 minutes.

0_o

WOW. I was floored. I told him he was more than welcome to hang out here whenever he wanted... but security said they needed him for some signatures so begrudgingly, he made his way through the back doors.

But c'mon, now - tell me that wasn't sweet?! Later on during autographs, I actually got to sit next to Mike for the last bit to "feed" him items to be autographed. You know how it goes - the fans give their item (picture, magazine, book, etc.) to the "feeder" - who passes it on to the actor.

He was soooooo generous. Said yes to just about every request made, no matter how tired or hungry he was. Apologized to everyone for the long line and thanked them all for waiting. I TOLD you he was a sweetheart!!

Coming up next... the Vampire Ball.

*** Photo Credits: Special thanks to Chauntelle Chandler for sharing her pics!! ***

(To be continued...)

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